In Memorial of.........

12/12/2007
As usual, i went to work......
suddenly i received a call saying a friend of mine is going to die soon..
actually she is a quite close friend of mine..
i knew she is sick for months ady...
last time we went to visit her in the hospital(b4 her transfusion),
she still looks the same but a little pale only...
we were not allowed to enter but to talk to her through windows..
now its few weeks after her transfusion then all the while we thought she will be well soon...
but now...
.......
i immediately took Emergency Leave, pick up all my friends n rush to hospital to see her..
but while we are on the way, we received another call, saying her cousin sister will visit her later..we were asked to go there jz to pay a visit and give her support..
(previously i thought we r goin there to take a last glimpse on her b4 she left.. =sigh=)..
so all of us thought is not that serious after all so we are not that worried anymore..
as we reach the ICU ward, we are only allowed to enter 2by2..
Jeng Mun and Wen Lee went in 1st.
when they come out,both of them looks like they are going to cry and JM tell us to give her more support...
we washed our hands, wear a mask,we enter...
omg....
"am I in the correct room?!"
this was my 1st impression...
me n li theng stood there speechless...
suddenly her dad say,"Suet leng, ur fren is here to c u..."
then i realise...its her...
its really her...
she....no more looks like her....
we all thought she will only loose her hair...
but...
we are all wrong......
she......
sickness had torchure her alot...a lot...a lot...
tiubs everywhere..blood stains....
i couldn't recognise her anymore....
she couldn't talk or gv any respond even with her eyes open...
li theng keep on talkin to her, gv her support...
i was..
....speechless..
then it's my turn to talk..my mind couldn't think of anything to say...
i'd try my best to talk to her...i'd try my best to act normal....
she breathe hard...
as we left the room to let another 2gals to enter...
we didn't say a word...
everyone remain silence...
after everyone take turns, we talked to her mum..
her mum cried...
suet leng was an obedient gal....
she still have a long road to go.......
but..y...
we left after that...went for lunch...guess everyone is hungry but no1 had the appetite to eat.....
jm suggest we all pray for her in the temple..
so i said ok,i'll drive them there but i had to pump petrol 1st..
therefore we search for petrol station...
suddenly, lt's hp rang...
we received the news that suet leng had passed away....
we were shocked...
we was planning to c her 2ml also...
but....
we thought of headin bak hospital but her family say no need..
so we al gather at 1place, meeting those who are unable to reach in time to c her...
we'd decided to buy her a doll for her birthday which fall for christmas...
coz we all noe she likes to collect dolls.....
this night.....
i couldn't slp......
everyone else also.....
just can't forget the look b4 she passed away...
it's so painful....so...heartbreaking...

13/12/2007
we went for her some sort of prayer which they called "da zai" in cantonese..
after we take a last glimpse on her, we sat down...
lookin at her picture...
she was so pretty..
like a princess....
tonight is just another slpless nite..
just couldn't stop thinking of her...
but she lied in the coffin...
so quiet.........

14/12/2007
today is her funeral...
all of us went to "send" her away...
it rained heavily that day...
until the ceremony ended,the rain stopped...
even the sky shed it's tears for her.......
lookin at her picture infront of the coffin..
just can't control my emotion.....
i couldn't believe that she lied in the coffin and will not wake up anymore...
wat i can say is...
Dear Suet Leng...
please rest in peace....
May Lord be with you always...

Workaholic~!

i'm here to announce that,
"YO~ i'm working ady~!!"
ya.ya.i sounded so happy..
no doubt, i'm happy that i'd found a job as an admin clerk,
which i can actually do 3months only and need not to stand for 8hours(e.g. promoters) coz i really cant afford to...
then i started workin on mid-oct...
work~work~work~~
then suddenly....
a person from my department can't work anymore,
now i have to do 2persons' job...
tell me EVERY STUFF in one single day..
oh-no, i should say HALF day...
suddenly all the jobs and responsibilities are stuffed into my head,
i feel like my mind is going to burst...
at 1st i really felt nothing working there,
what i mean is..not that stressed,
but now...i can't even smile in the office...
unless my colleagues purposely joke with me lar...
my mind is like a overloaded computer...
startin to go slower n slower....
whenever some1 ask me something,
i can't respond fast,
whenever i need to do a job,
i need to think for a long moment then i only know what should i do...
argh~
i think i'm goin crazy...
my system kinda going to hang..
i need help....
anything can help to improve my conditions??
erm...
brands essence chicken??
(so that i can be more energetic?)
extra coffees?
(to keep me awake all the time??)
chocolates??
(where i was told it could make a person happier??)
or perhaps.........
a larger memory ram??
a pen drive??
or...












FORMAT THE SYSTEM........

final exam is over~~!! hurray~~!!!
now waiting for results~already pass 3subjects,2more to go~
hey hey~i've got a brand new look~new hairstyle~~
wonder will i shocked everyone?haha...
it's good to change once in a while~~
now i'm searching for jobs~having a 3months hoiday~
so i have to gambateh to find some money to support my own expenses~
any jobs to recommend??haha~~

whoof~~relieved week~~

finally~
All the assignments,presentations,mid-terms are gone for now~!!
has been really relaxing for the past few weeks~(but final exam is around the corner (T.T)

ohya~~
i would like to thank my hubby,all my fellow frens and classmates for celebrating my b'day for me~~
i'm really touched...
n thx for u guys' presents and cakes~~

recently,
i feel like i'm not myself....
i think i kinda changed a lot lately..
i mean my attitude&personality...
is this a good thing? or a bad thing?
....hmm.... =thinking hard=

haish~~
i'm so cold right now...
sitting in the school's library like a loner...
so damn boring.....
facing the cold hard computer,
typing+coughing+shivering(coz i forget to bring my sweater)= pethatic
y is our school library's like a enormous refrigerator~~!!!
so damn cold~~~!!
can somebody save me..?????
the answer is---------NO!
then i hv to stop my blog here d...coz it's too cold....
my mind is not functioning....
hahaha..=shiver=....=shiver=...

The Curse Of Stairs~!!

have u ever heard of a person fall down from stairs two days in a role?
if u have not,
then u noe now....
how do i feel??
**injured** **pain** **suffering**
am i clumsy?
i walked down damn slow.
am i stupid?
i dropped with a nice pose.
(after i fall my pose is sitting nicely on the stairs..Amazing,huh?)
am i pity?
i stood up by myself.
am i bad luck?
i fell on the same stairs but different level.
am i lucky?
i didn't end up lying in the hospital.

among this holiday we had celebrated two gal's birthday~~

the 1st one is Chloe whos b'day is at 14th of may..
this is her b'day cake - Black Forest.....


the birthday gal~~~


this is another birthday gal - Yee , who's birthday is on 25th of May..


her Fruit Cake...


the very same place-->Wings Music Cafe (their stage)...

person hu attended to yee's birthday celebration....

hhmm-hhmmm--tasty~~!!

oh?handsome guy~~let me make a good pose...

eat eat n eat............

same species with the birthday gal-----------CuTeZ!!

may both of the birthday gal's birthday wishes come true and Happy always~~!!

EAT EAT n EAT~~~~

whoof~

finaly my final exam is ended~~

it's holiday now~~~yiiiippppyyyy!!!!

i'd been dining at lots of different places previously~~

this is **Secret Garden**

their bar tend n very special table,nice huh??

n Delicious food in TONY ROMAS........

Delicous Desert

"Apple Crisp"
chilled ice-cream on top,

chrunchy cookies in the middle,

hot apple pie at the bottom...
hmm-hhmm..delicious~~

Fresh Tropical Drink

"Mango Swirl"

and last but not least,"Xiong Gin Fun" for tasty steaks,

u can sit on the swing while u r dining with friends,families or loved ones~~so romantic~~~

hhhmm.....anywhere else?...hmmm....let me think..whether there is anymore food i can recommend....

Spongy Footballs??

Crispy Chicks??

or........................................................

HOT DOGS????

haha~~nah~~~

it's enough SPECIAL foods for me....
i prefer craving for normal foods~~

-THE END-

Recover...

finally recover from sick~~
previously sick til 103.....
now got a bit spoilt d......
sob sob.....
hope i wil not be so blur throughout the year.......haiz......

oh my god......

this morning when i woke up, i felt dizzy and headache...
felt so hard to get up from bed...
i toke the termometer and put it in my mouth......
??!! wat?!! 101.4 ???
the termometer spoilt d is it?
oh my god...
really feel like not going to school today...
but today hv three classes...
couldn't afford not to go coz i'll be missing all the lessons and get blur in my final exam.....
sob....still hv to go to school.....haiz......

Sick again....

haih...after all the homeworks,courseworks,presentations and pressures,
i finally get sick.......AGAIN.....
was sick last week...recovered after two days,then now sick again...
fever,cough,flu,soar throat......pethatic,huh??
at last,all the tests and presentations had come to an end for a while...
i can have a *small* break...
but FINAL EXAM is coming... =sob= =sob=.....
it's been a while i didn't update my blog..
wana apologize to those who waited so long....
hope all of u will give me feedbacks(comments) for every post i'd posted...
n thx for u guys' supports all the while....
by the way,did anyone have any method to cure cough??
i'm coughing like hell and non-stoppin until i can't get a good nite slp at nite......
university life is so stressful...
wonder y everyone can look so relax...so comfortable...so adaptive...
while i feel so stressful...it's only year 1 semester 1 for me and i ady couldn't stand...
couldn't imagine my life after this....
i miss my old frens...
i damn hope that they r in the same Uni with me and we can do all the presentations and assignments together like we used to be....
i miss my dancing crews....
i miss all my "konco-koncos"......
today,my post seems to be in a mess...
i hope all of u dun mind....
coz i'd taken medicine....a bit blur....
everything's in a mess.....
k lar....have to stop postin now....
my mind is not functioning ady.....
so wish that i can get a good rest now..but i can't...
coz i'm in school......sobs........
wish me luck wen i drive home in this blur condition....haha...
byez.........................

*'~Music Passion~`*

it's a whole new year n i'm schoolin again~
but this time it's a bit different....
i'm in University now!
adapting in a new environment is defenitely uneasy.....
especially i'm being "forced" to take part in the talent nite show..
i'm really not planning to participate....
but since i'm in n no way out...i'll try to accept the REALITY....
n my coursework presentation is at the same week!!!
but thk god,they prosponed the presentation date 1week later....
if not i'll be crying all the way through out this week....=sob= =sob=
we r now having practice from 16/1-26/1 everynite 8pm til however long it should take.....
yesterday nite,we r trying out wit the band~(cool guys they are~!)
n they r actually the previous talent nite contestant!
being part of the band is really fun~
never felt this kind of passion into music for my entire life after i met them!!
the guitarist,Clement...(say dat i'm like a kid.. =.=") is really good in "catching" keys n chords (in a really short time)...
while another guitarist(n oso the lead singer of the band i guess) Melvin,knows how to play lots of musical instruments n he is damn good in singing~~!!!
in conclusion,last nite was GREAT!
although all these activities are really tiring,(last nite i reach home at 12am....)
but....now i'm feeling better....coz i gain a lot of experiences n funs n frens.....
n most important of all--------------------------------my coursework presentation is prosponed!!
Whee~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

something really really bad had happen last thursday....
i was so shocked seing dat incident happenned.....
so sory dat i dun fil like mentioning here in the blog right now....
y do bad things happen in chains?
i felt like i've been soakin in the deep blue sea for weeks...
seakin 4 help but it seems like no1 is ard....
nobody sees me nor hear me....

sank in the deep blue sea,
unconcious is all i can be,
dive deep down to look for me,
find me in a place where eye's can't see......

lonely~~i'm MisS LoneLy....

finally....
i'm left alone..to get in to university...
2of my best frens failed to get in.......
it should be a good news dat some1 is able to get in university,
but i'm not.....


**Deserted alone in a snowland so cold,
overwhelmed i am by the feeling of loss,
time passby a little bit too slow,
tell me all that happened are only a frod.**


i tot we'll only be seperated while we step into the society,
when all of us get different jobs,
but i was wrong,totally wrong.....
everything just happened too fast.........
none of us expect it to be like this......
i'm not ready yet......
y....y must i always be alone???


**Thousands of grievances lodge in my heart,
millions of misunderstands nid 2b explained,
fate drown us forever 2b apart,
where else i can shout out all of my complaints??**


dat's nothing i can do...neither of us can....
making new frens for others is easy....
but 4me,
i find it hard to trust someone..especially those i just met....
n i'm damn poor in socialising...
people always think dat i'm too cool....too cocky...
didn't they noe dat they shouldn't jugde a book by it's cover?!


**Wear a mask of elate if i can,
for smile and sweet faces are what they keen,
but hit them hard on the head with a pan,
you'll figure out their souls are not that "clean".**


i noe life must go on even without them studyin the same school wit me,
but i just hope dat,
no matter wat happen,
our friendship will not fade off.......forever....
i gv my best wishes to the 2of u...for u guys r my best frens..
may GOD bless all of us......

y fate must seperate us apart........

today i just received a bad news..
my fren din get the admission to the university dat we apply...
n my another fren had only a very small percentage to be able to get in...
it is all because of they suddenly upgrade the qualification to get in their university....
usually it is not dat strict...
dat means i might be studyin alone......
haiz...
y must fate seperate us apart??
y can't we just stay together??
i really duno wat to do....
mayb i should pray more......
haih........

nice! nice! nice!!

11/11/2006

we'd plan to celebrate li theng's birthday on this day!(although it isn't her b'day)
really feel sorry to her coz on her birthday(10/10),she's workin n all of us r not free to celebrate wir her...
so me n yee secretly plan a birthday celebration 4her on 11/11...
y so late?coz three of us are workin~workin~workin~~til the end of october....
so at 11/11/2006,
we went to school 4 a "farewell-party",
we r invited coz we r their seniors n they'd always wish to do1 4 us but they miss the chance,
so this time they wish us there to support them...
after dat,we went to sing in red-box,(part of the plan)...
then we walk here n there(actually is shoppin...)..
then go yam-cha at u-village..(talkin crasps...)
then go time square n keep on our shopins..
n finally,it's ard 7pm...
this was where the suprised should begun...
we bring her to Wings Music Cafe.
while bee kiaw n suet leng is on their way over here,
yee called them to buy a birthday cake....
i ask li theng to accompany me to the wash room while bk n sl come into the cafe n gv the cake to the cafe's staff to keep the cake without lt's notice....
then we hv our delicous dinner...
after that it's ard 8.30pm....
we called jeng mun to ask the staffs to bring the cake out...
then there was a big suprised..
the cafe singers suddenly get on stage to sing a birthday song to her!!
actually their show is on 9pm but they purposely get on stage to sing~
how kind they are!!
i was shocked by their acts2!
they wait til lt blow out the candles n they sing the last line of birthday song..
i felt really gratefull to them for makin the celebration "special" to lt...
coz actually she was startin to get a little fedup when we tried to keep her from goin home early while we were waitin 4 bee kiaw n suet leng to reach....hehe...
so,a hundred of thanks to the singers!!
ard 9pm,as we r goin to leave the cafe,
i get to hear them sing a song(but i din finish listenin coz we running out of time..)
the guy really sing well(he's singing a gal song)...
it's really nice...touching!!
i'm a little regret for not finishin hearin them sing~~
haiz...hope i can get the chance to hear him sing again~~
coz it's really great!!!
hmm.....guess i've nothing to say anymore...
great thanks to all that come to celebrate lt's b'day while i was worrying dat no1 will come...
thx again to both of the singers at wings cafe,kl.....
thx~
thx~
thx~
n it's me-Crystal signing off~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

working is fun??or exhausting??or funny??

hooffff.............
finally i'm back home...
after 3weeks of working + stayin at my friends house....
it's tiring....................
really tiring~~~
workin from 10am-10pm is normal to a bunch of ppl.....
serving customer from time to time...
puttin on that smile...talkin non-stoppinly....repeatin the same dialogues like a robot..
"we hv different sizes for this design...."
"u can try this on,n hv a look at the mirror...."
"yes?can i help u?"
"discount?this is a discounted item...."
but there still lots of funs!!

if u meet wit foreigners.........
"discount?no.....this(pointing to the selected item)...cheap!!!...nice...."
"o-ran-ji??(wat's dat?!) oh!!!orange colour!yes!yes!wait ah...."
"L size?no----this---free size!"
"free size?no---this---S,M,L....three size!!"

suddenly three guys came....
weird..we only sell gal's outfit....
"ada....ada....yang...dalam....??wanita......yang dalam....??"
he kept on using his hand to show me his tummy...is big...
"yang dalam...."he said....
"??????????"
he keep on repeating his dialogues n doin dat action....
then i stared at him wit all the question marks floating in the air.....
suddenly....i tot of something....
"oh!!!baju mengandung...."
3of them nod hardly.....
oh my god!!.......
it takes me century to guess wat he wants while he keep on sayin,"yang dalam.."
it makes me think that he wana buy "those" thing for his wife...
i even wonder shouldn't his wife come by herself if she wanted something like "dat"?!
finally i figure out wat he wants but we don't hv...
after they left,i laugh n laugh n laugh non-stopping.....
"yang dalam...wanita...."
mua-ahahahaha-hahahaaa......

then i saw some japanese tourists....
"kore wa kawaii ne~~~"they said...then they ask me whether we accept yen..
"yen?no no no....ringgit malaysia..."i said...
then she ask where's the money changer...i told her ..
later on she's bak for the skirt....
"ko re wa?hai,chotto......(after she paid)...arigato gozaimasu!!chia ne!)
(i only understand a little bit of japanese language n can only speak little.....)

some i can't even understand wat they r sayin.... =.="

then dat day,i went to "Thai Fair" to buy some foods for my colleages.....
"tom yam....."i said..
"oi mat ye funn?"she asked(in cantonese,means wat kind of noodles do u want?)
she is the only 1 hu noes a little bit of cantonese)
"lai fun.." i answered.
when it's ready,she gv me the noodles,i paid n she said something....
i really duno wat is she talkin about...(guess she's sayin thanks)
so i show her a confused expresssion...
then she keep on sayin lots of "words" dat i dun un....
"kao-cai....(thai)" i said in sudden....
if i'm not mistaken,it means "i understand" in thai....if i'm not mistaken lar..
then the gal was shocked!
she asked(in cantonese),"u noe thai language?"
"no..." i said...then i "ran" off....
leaving her wit her mouth open wide.....
actually i only noe "sawadika" n "kaocai" in thai....
2 words....
muahahahaa......

it's really tiring after work n especially u r not stayin at ur own home...
hv to do laundries after 12am...
wake up early in the morning...iron ur shirts....dress-up..
n it's workin time again.....

anyhow..
i gain experiences,
met new frens,
get salary(this is important!),
n lots of funs~~!!!!!!

i'm BACK!!

i'm back from my vacation!!!!!
now i'm resting at home,not workin....coz i lost 1of my job opportunity.....
anywayz,i guess i'll be helping my fren later...
i'd went to penang from 28/8 til 31/8 wen my fren--yee invited us to hv a so-called-trip to there.....
it's been a while i din go for a "walk"...
i'd been chainning myself to my families n locking myself in the house,doing some stuffs..unnecessary stuffs...
so guess wat?this journey was really fun!!!
a hundred thanks to **yee** n her grandpa,grandma,aunties,uncles..last but nt least her little cousin---Madeline....!!!!
my mum told me dat i look better(healthier) after i came bak fr penang...(b4 this i look really pale)
i guess this trip rejuvenate my soul ~~~
i'd take tonnes of pictures n awaiting to post them up...
so stay tuned for my next blog...
hopefully i'll be able to write a post abt my whole journey along wit the pictures i took there!!!!

yesterday nite duno wat happen.....
can't slp for the whole nite....
i just can't fal aslp in any wayz!
i hardly sleep....
this morning i'm disturb by my brother ard 9am...
duno y is he awake so early wen he is not workin today...
(he always like to disturb me early in every morning except sunday..)
argh.......
i can't even fal slp last nite n wen i juz trying to fal slp he wake me up!!!
oh my god..
i was exhausted....
my energy level almost drop to ZERO after i'd finish all the chores....
(even my blog is runnning out of color..gv me some "energy"!!!!.....)
i think i'm goin to had a headache...
nid to rest now.....
hope that i can get a good slp to nite...
haiz................................................@.@

Cherish All that U have!

nowadays if u really read the newspapers...
u can c that the society is in a mess...
those snatch theives are inconsiderable..or i should say cold blooded...
so many victims had been found recently...
all of u out there...pls take good care of yourself..
dun let them hv a chance to even take the 1st step...

i saw another news dat day...
the fire took away 4precious lives...4children.....i saw their pictures..
their really cute n naive...
i almost shed my tears when i read it(i dun cry easily)...

from all these "bad news",
it makes me cherish all that i hv now....
if u quarel wit ur frens or family or anybody,
take the 1st step to say "i'm sorry" or "i forgive" u....
always treat them nice....
always be patient...
tolerate wit them...be nice...
and they will do that back 2u too.....
dun wait til everything is too late.....

i'm really afraid....afraid of something bad happens...
so pls pls pls pls pls....
to everyone that is reading or not even reading this...
take good care of yourself...
be cautious n alert anytime anywhere...
i dun wana miss anything in my life..

i always pray n pray n pray so that nothing bad will happen..
i always pray n pray n pray so that the world wil hv peace...
pray wit me k?dun be tentative to do so....
no matter wat religion u r..
pray to ur god .....
bless this world...bless all nations...
MAY GOD BLESS ALL OF U!!!!

Enthusiasm

this week they change away the ancient organ!
mayb the priest oso can't stand the creepy sound...hahaa...jz kidding.....
this organ was definitely better than the previous1....but...
the rhythm of "8beat1","16beat2","rock n' roll" turned out to be really weird..
when i play wit those rhythm....all the hymns sounded hilarous...
my fren sitting beside me keep on giggling at the funny sound...n i fil so embarrased..
fuh.........
i always think dat i do not perform well durin playing organ in the church..
(maybe it's becoz i'm a piano learner but not organ...)

**my beloved piano..**
everytime i play the organ,it'll either sound weird or in a mess....
i'd really wanted everything to be in a good shape...but it just can't...
eveything just got worse when u have a musical-educated-priest....
every single note dat u press wrong i think he'll realise....
all the tense just drive me crazy sometimes...
anywaz...i'll still play the organ anyhow....

hmm...
nowadays i'm still searching for jobs....
hopefully i'll get a job dat i want... ^^
n i heard that there are some conflicts happening between my juniors in my previous high school...
i do hope they can make things out...
knowing about their own responsibilities...
not only waiting for others to do all the job...
i'm saying all this coz i really hope that the "thing" can last 4ever...
all my friends n even myself put a lot efforts in that "thing"...i will never wish to c it "collapse"...
sometimes i really feel like advising them in all kinds of situation...
hoping dat they step into the same "hole" dat we stepped in b4 this...
but...i noe there are some guys hu really dun like me or even hate me....
they'll definitely think that i'm bussy body...
"u already left the school!wat 4 u care about the "thing"?!mind ur own business!"
i can really imagine them thinking like this....(but still it's only my own thought)
therefore i rather be numb.....or even blind....in this kind of circumstances...
coz it'll hurt even more when i heard those words....
n i recall the days that i'd been through for the "thing"...
all the hardworks repay in all sorts of accusses....n heartbreaking moments....
sometimes i even ask myself,"is it wrong to be passionate in a "thing"?
after knowing all the misunderstanding.....
yes i guess..............







my previous
dancing crews..

but i'll always cherish the moments dat i had with the "thing".....

the ancient organ....

this previous sunday was my turn to play the organ..
the normally-used organ has been spoilt 4 a couple of weeks..
therefore we'd been using keyboard b4 this,but suprisingly.....
an ANCIENT organ pop out this week!
oh my god,my 1st point of view to the organ is, "is this the organ dat i should use 4this week?"
then i started asking someone who incharge of this kind of stuffs...
and she said,"yes,yes,this is the one!"
"wat?!"i duno wat to say....
i just couldn't imagine myself playing this "antique"..it'll be hilarous~~!
i looked at the organ...here n there...up n down...for a long time....
i really duno wat to do!! after a while,i finally touched the organ carefully...as if it's fragile....
it really sounded like those organ in the creepy mansion where vampires lived...ooo...
then i realised there was no way to controll the "key"(the previous organ has a button to control)...oh my god...
does this means dat everyone has to sing in C major?(coz different songs were composed in different keys n i'd change all the chords into Cmajor,if not i've to change all the melody lines...n it'll take a long time...but if u are pro enuf,that'll be an easy job...but not me...hehe...)
thank god another organist was there to help me out..
u noe wat's the ending??~~~~~
most of the songs r sung in Cmajor....hahaha....
some songs sounded too high key n some sounded too low...hahaha.....but no one seemed to realize....
was it becoz i covered it up perfectly??nah-------
it's GOD sending his angels to help me out!
anywaz....thank god n everyone!!
if not,i'll be saying,

"Dear brothers n sisters in christ,kindly sing aloud with all ur HEARTS n SOULS ...........without music!!!!!"


.......hahahahahaha..........

- THE END -

it's been a while....

wow....I'm really lazy!!!
it's been a while i didn't post anything on this blog~
i'd made some changes with the backgroud,have u notice??
is it nice? give me some comments,k?
oh ya, i need to apologize to all the readers to my blog....
I'M REALLY SORRY! for not posting 4 so so so long....as if it's been a c3ntury~~haha...
nowadays it's quite free 4me to do a lot of things especially things that i wanted 2do b4 this....
i wrote a lot of essays nowadays...(trying to be an amateur writter...hehhe..)
one got publish in the chinapress, n others.....eehhem...(mayb they are in the trash folder of the editor's mailbox)...hehe....
hhmm.....i'm now trying to find a job.....
"hey~~but i'm the lazy bug!!!"my heart shouts....
but i can't just sit here n wait my time to past,right? .....(can i??)
haha...but somehow,i will find a job...n i mean it....just wish me luck,k?
i heard that my juniors are trying to held a mooncake festival celebration at a school on 29th of September,
i'm pretty concerned about it,
i really hope everything turn out 2b "smooth" 4them...
really don't wish anything bad happenned....
so finally, i wana wish them LUCK!n i hope u guys out there do the same,
n dun forget to wish me luck 2 so that i can find a job asap~
gracias.......
signing out now......bye!

7月5日

还是头痛.....
本来不烦恼....
因我知道走到最后我会做出最后决定.....
本以为自己有选择权....
以为这次与从前不同......
但原来一切还是没变....
一旦没依照你的意思去做选择甚至是思考，你都会摆出不好看的脸色....
其实你有意要替我做选择，但你却问我要什么...
但是我真的可以不顾虑你说的而照我自己的意愿去做吗？可能吗？
既然如此，你为什么要问我意见，让我空欢喜一场？！
在你心目中，我永远都是贪玩，贪玩，贪玩，贪玩，
i'm nothing...nothing but a gal who likes to play....
那些第一名都是靠luck才拿到的，
做主席搞学会也是因为我贪玩，
就连我都中六也是因为我贪玩，
我从来都没有努力，没有，
我只爱玩，只懂得玩.

我终于辞职了...

在我走之前，我根本就一直想着离开。

因我觉得你们根本就不想看见我，甚至讨厌我。

当我说我要走的时候，你们留我，叫我不要走，

但你们言行不一致...

到我要走的最后一天，

我才真正感觉到你们的关爱，感觉到你们真的是不舍得...

但这一切已来得太迟....

我已辞职了....很抱歉不能在教你们了..

真心希望你们找到比我更好..更疼你们的老师...

将来一定要出人头地....

老师永远都会记得你们的...永远....

HaPpY NeW YeAr~~~!!!!!!
to ALL my Fellow FrenS...
no matter
how long i din call u guys...
how long i din sms u guys...
or
how long i din meet up wit u guys....
i still wana wish all of u
a pRosPerouS neW YeAr~~
everyone wil get many ang paos~~
all of u guys' dreams will come true~~
and the most of all...
Healthy Alwayz~~``!!!!
GONG XI FA CHAI!!!
i want ang paos~~~ =bleks=

today....i had a bad day.....
my SIM card is spoilt...
my hp suddenly can't detected my SIM card.....n i just reload it...
my MUET result....
................
never tot dat i will deproved n dropped from a band to another...
i didn't just waste my money...
but my time,my energy,my effort...my everything...
besides that....
i discovered something dat i duno all the while...........
............................................................
my heart just shattered into pieces.......................
........................................................
............who can mend this BrOkEn HeArt.........................

Life iS aBouT LeARniNg~~~ 

i'm getting lazier and lazier to leave a post in here....
may be is because i started working and i'm too tired to think of anything to write....
after a few days of working.....
i realise that i don't quite like my job.....
i've been thinking a lot nowadays...wat is the problem....y aren't i happy....
may be i'm just not the teaching-type......
today....i finally figure out....
may be is beacause i do not like to talk a lot...but i have to talk everyday......
i am the quiet type person...but my job requires a lot of talking...
haiz......
..........
=blue feelings=

Yo~~ HapPy NeW yEaR!!!!
i've got the best new year GIFT ever.....
i've got a job!the1 that i applied b4 this...i'm so lucky to get hired after 1 interview only...there are so many people struggle so hard to get a job..but... i GoT iT!!! Thank god ...
so now i'm going to be a primary teacher...i only have to work for 5 days in a week... =yeah=
... this job for sure will buy me some valueable experiences.....i will be start workin tomorrow~~~
....hhmmm....wonder how will i handle those students.....will they be nice to me??or gettin very annoying everytime i try to teach??...we'll wait and see.....
so...wish me LuCk~~~~

i'm so tired today...
coz i went out wit my mum...accompanied her to saloon...went to my aunt's house...went for shoppin...
i'm exhausted now....
i still haven't get a job yet.....nowadays sitting at home...doing nothing.....
i almost curl my hair today...but i didn't ...coz ....duno.....maybe later.....
= yawn =... =yawn=.....
i nid to hv a good rest.....
i'm goin to bed now.......nitez...............
wait.
where are my good nite kisses??...........
...wat?no??so stingy.....
..............zzZZZzzzzz..................

Hi everyone~~
it's quite late now...
tomorrow i have an interview to attend...
i really hope that i get this job...
so...i have to go to bed now.....
Wish ME LuCk...Ok??!!
NiTez.........