In Memorial of.........

12/12/2007
As usual, i went to work......
suddenly i received a call saying a friend of mine is going to die soon..
actually she is a quite close friend of mine..
i knew she is sick for months ady...
last time we went to visit her in the hospital(b4 her transfusion),
she still looks the same but a little pale only...
we were not allowed to enter but to talk to her through windows..
now its few weeks after her transfusion then all the while we thought she will be well soon...
but now...
.......
i immediately took Emergency Leave, pick up all my friends n rush to hospital to see her..
but while we are on the way, we received another call, saying her cousin sister will visit her later..we were asked to go there jz to pay a visit and give her support..
(previously i thought we r goin there to take a last glimpse on her b4 she left.. =sigh=)..
so all of us thought is not that serious after all so we are not that worried anymore..
as we reach the ICU ward, we are only allowed to enter 2by2..
Jeng Mun and Wen Lee went in 1st.
when they come out,both of them looks like they are going to cry and JM tell us to give her more support...
we washed our hands, wear a mask,we enter...
omg....
"am I in the correct room?!"
this was my 1st impression...
me n li theng stood there speechless...
suddenly her dad say,"Suet leng, ur fren is here to c u..."
then i realise...its her...
its really her...
she....no more looks like her....
we all thought she will only loose her hair...
but...
we are all wrong......
she......
sickness had torchure her alot...a lot...a lot...
tiubs everywhere..blood stains....
i couldn't recognise her anymore....
she couldn't talk or gv any respond even with her eyes open...
li theng keep on talkin to her, gv her support...
i was..
....speechless..
then it's my turn to talk..my mind couldn't think of anything to say...
i'd try my best to talk to her...i'd try my best to act normal....
she breathe hard...
as we left the room to let another 2gals to enter...
we didn't say a word...
everyone remain silence...
after everyone take turns, we talked to her mum..
her mum cried...
suet leng was an obedient gal....
she still have a long road to go.......
but..y...
we left after that...went for lunch...guess everyone is hungry but no1 had the appetite to eat.....
jm suggest we all pray for her in the temple..
so i said ok,i'll drive them there but i had to pump petrol 1st..
therefore we search for petrol station...
suddenly, lt's hp rang...
we received the news that suet leng had passed away....
we were shocked...
we was planning to c her 2ml also...
but....
we thought of headin bak hospital but her family say no need..
so we al gather at 1place, meeting those who are unable to reach in time to c her...
we'd decided to buy her a doll for her birthday which fall for christmas...
coz we all noe she likes to collect dolls.....
this night.....
i couldn't slp......
everyone else also.....
just can't forget the look b4 she passed away...
it's so painful....so...heartbreaking...

13/12/2007
we went for her some sort of prayer which they called "da zai" in cantonese..
after we take a last glimpse on her, we sat down...
lookin at her picture...
she was so pretty..
like a princess....
tonight is just another slpless nite..
just couldn't stop thinking of her...
but she lied in the coffin...
so quiet.........

14/12/2007
today is her funeral...
all of us went to "send" her away...
it rained heavily that day...
until the ceremony ended,the rain stopped...
even the sky shed it's tears for her.......
lookin at her picture infront of the coffin..
just can't control my emotion.....
i couldn't believe that she lied in the coffin and will not wake up anymore...
wat i can say is...
Dear Suet Leng...
please rest in peace....
May Lord be with you always...